Disappointed

::: Am I give up already ?? WHY?? what should I do that??


I don't know, what should I say.. but for sure, today is the worse day ever in my life!! it can't be !! o.O .. huuu ~~ I feel like, I've been sliced into pieces... ouhh gosssshhhh, only GOD know how I feel right now... I don't get it.. I even enter any of it... {im wondering that, im not good enough??} I don't know how to say.. im became speechless person... blurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.............. >,< i hate there feeling... need someone to came me comfortable but i dont know who?? if i've someone, maybe i just create horrible things... " I JUST GIVE UP ALREADY " its useless... i just can't..  there's nothing i can apply in this moment... all been done!! the answer can't be change.. its already been judge... im wondering, what kinda person am i?? useless, speechless, ect...

~ i know, theres no turning back... if i regret now, its still doesn't work either.. my pass, is now just my history in my life.. if i give up now.. what will happen to my future?? if i can see, what will happen in my future.. I can see, what i do and some else... am I stupid ?? yeahh.. it could be.. clever enough for doing something unpredictable... maybe i just LOSE my mind... seriously, am i flying without wings... dreaming thats even come true.. hmm just call it as USELESS ...


~ now i understand, why some people wouldn't believe with me.. they can judge me from my attitude, am i right?? lets we take a look, between ME and MY LIL SISTER... hmmm.. she smarter than me, she clever than me.. what else?? everthing in her... even my parents can't believe me, or what i dreaming for!! =,=" yeahh, you can say me "IM JEALOUS WITH SHE" ... who am i?? yeahh, i know that GOD create human being as a HIS choice to make the WORLD done!! but till now, im still wondering... "I MADE OF WHAT KINDA PURPOSE??" seriously i dont get it... everthing that i do.. it doesn't make good thing... i always involve in the trouble.. T_T ... how sad am i...


~ lifes must go on.. yeahh i know that!! but i fade-up !! just can't !! if i just cry a lot and a lot... and a lot... it just useless.. maybe i just a useless person after all..  let the time pass me by.. waiting its gonna ends...