Give Some Time ...

~ now i know, how it's feel like.. in the pass, i who was make she/he cried.. now its my turn.. okey then, its PAIR {1-1} .. huuu.. feel guilty? hated?? yeahh..u may say it.. theres many kind of FEEL out there..right? so wht?? have u been in fighting {yeahh of course} ... bla..blaa..blaaa.. black sheep T.T ..

there's a time, for us.. sometimes,sometimes and sometimes... what ever sometime it is, there is a reason why it is happen to u, IN YOUR LIFE.. maybe we, don't know wht isn't,but someday u'll know abt it.. it just NOT KNOW.. sooner yet to come...

yeaahh..seriously, i HATE that "person" who knowing me so well but does not understand me the WAY i act or the WAY i react.. BUT she/he knowing me so well.. T,T {its like wasting my time with/hang-out he/she everday and anyway..} okey, I JUST HATE IT.. lalalalalalalalalala~ u know, she/he anger abt something..could u ask him/her WHY and suddenly tell wht is the reason?? JUST STOP IT!!! u just make the situation even worse than before.. {hahahahax great, nice one} yeahh.. i know, that u just wanna help he/she out of his/her badly situation BUT NOT THE WAY.. there is another way to solve it.. simple way, LEAVE HIM/HER ALONE for awhile.. when is time to come..she/he will come to u and tell everthing wht is happen.. DON'T EVER FORCE THEM, okey?? hmm.. LEAVE he/she doesn't mean u let her/him by itself.. because they need your help {ahe, still on the track?? hee~ } ...

secondly, GIVE THEM A TIME .. why? if u just force he/she to tell the truth, they will even more angry... then the WORSE thing is UNFRIEND LIST! "okey, fine.. i'll find a new friend that nice than u! " - the question is, can't u leave her/him ? will u find or fine WITHOUT him/her with u?? so THINK wisely ... "it's hard to face it" , "i just hate her/him much" and so on... this WORDS just make u feel better abt ur situation right now.. maybe just in a few week,months ect..

the point here is , it's important to u to know how she/he react.. don't just take it EASY .. {it doesn't easier as u think of.. WHY? because i've been there too} ...

::: remember, please understand him/her and give her/him a time ... they need it.. :-)

Confused About What??

~ to be honest, im lil bit confuse about "what happen just now" ... all around me, make me confuse!! i hate it.. there many thing just happen on this day.. A good news and a bad news for me... but seriously i cant stand all about this. yeahh, for goodnews is on this friday (20th APRIL) there's a "pre-test on driving... im happy to heard it.. but at the same time im lil bit nervous.. because it's not only me be going on that test.. maybe 5 to 10 and so on will take a test too.. ^_^ .. then 1 week after that, these a test for JPJ test (30th APRIL) .. hmm ky, i guess thts for  goodnews.. now for the badnews, oww gosh i dnt knw where should i strt.. hee~

~ im wondering, if you wanna give to someone she/he a gift.. will you take it back?? if you take it back, so tht mean the gift tht u've gave is doesn't genuine, am i right?? GIFT, is you know.. wht is mean for?? giving something to someone but suddenly he/she take it back or wanna take it from u.. just because you brokeup with he/she or something else... T_T im not sure why, some people will do tht.. seriously, i wanna know whts is the reason they do tht... alright then, if it so... all your things, tell he/she return it to you also... know its pair right?? hihihihi... you return his/her... and he/she return all you things to you... or just retyrn his/her stuff but for your just tell tem to keep it.. as long they want it..

~ yupz.. there's many kind of PEOPLE out there... some of them has a good attitude but some of them not, some of them nice but some of them a evil.. how many people, that u meet?? do you like their act or else?? hmmm... people CANNOT change THEM to be good or something, accept THEY WANT TO CHANGE THEIR DALY LIFE.. if not, it just useless and wasting your energy to tell them that and that and that... (blalalalalalala)... but however, dont ever revenge it toward them.. just keep nice with it.. SMILE, and ignore all those evil thinking...

~ forgiving is a good solution than REVENGE it.. so, remember... each people has their on personality or a reason WHY THEY DO THAT you.. :)

Disappointed

::: Am I give up already ?? WHY?? what should I do that??


I don't know, what should I say.. but for sure, today is the worse day ever in my life!! it can't be !! o.O .. huuu ~~ I feel like, I've been sliced into pieces... ouhh gosssshhhh, only GOD know how I feel right now... I don't get it.. I even enter any of it... {im wondering that, im not good enough??} I don't know how to say.. im became speechless person... blurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.............. >,< i hate there feeling... need someone to came me comfortable but i dont know who?? if i've someone, maybe i just create horrible things... " I JUST GIVE UP ALREADY " its useless... i just can't..  there's nothing i can apply in this moment... all been done!! the answer can't be change.. its already been judge... im wondering, what kinda person am i?? useless, speechless, ect...

~ i know, theres no turning back... if i regret now, its still doesn't work either.. my pass, is now just my history in my life.. if i give up now.. what will happen to my future?? if i can see, what will happen in my future.. I can see, what i do and some else... am I stupid ?? yeahh.. it could be.. clever enough for doing something unpredictable... maybe i just LOSE my mind... seriously, am i flying without wings... dreaming thats even come true.. hmm just call it as USELESS ...


~ now i understand, why some people wouldn't believe with me.. they can judge me from my attitude, am i right?? lets we take a look, between ME and MY LIL SISTER... hmmm.. she smarter than me, she clever than me.. what else?? everthing in her... even my parents can't believe me, or what i dreaming for!! =,=" yeahh, you can say me "IM JEALOUS WITH SHE" ... who am i?? yeahh, i know that GOD create human being as a HIS choice to make the WORLD done!! but till now, im still wondering... "I MADE OF WHAT KINDA PURPOSE??" seriously i dont get it... everthing that i do.. it doesn't make good thing... i always involve in the trouble.. T_T ... how sad am i...


~ lifes must go on.. yeahh i know that!! but i fade-up !! just can't !! if i just cry a lot and a lot... and a lot... it just useless.. maybe i just a useless person after all..  let the time pass me by.. waiting its gonna ends...

I Lost My Beloved Cat..

~ My Beloved One... ~

yesterday , on 21th FEB 2012.. it might my nightmare .. Because I lost my cat... I mean its DEAD already.. how sad it is.. I cant believe it, now it is gone forever.. I cry it, without NANSTOP!! why it is happen to me??!! WHY?? I love it most!! Now, i'm forever alone.. I've no friend or be my side.. even playing together.. I MISS YOU, CHOMMYE!! yes, I do miss you.. now you're not with me anymore.. I'm glad that, we spend our time TOGETHER.. ouh gosh, I cant stop think of you!! why?? because I really love you..deep inside my HEART.. I hoping that we still can play longer with me.. but it wouldn't happen, right??  I'm weak right now.. I'm run out of energy!! I cry so hard for you!! I cant stand, or look how you die.. how about your baby?? Chydow, Chybie and Chyfoe?? they will miss you too.. I dont know, how long I'll accept it that you gone right now.. even I see you picture, its make me cry.. I adopt you on 7th Januari 2012.. how long it is, you with me?? maybe, its take time for me to accept that you're not longer with me anymore... what a crazy day!! I keep thinking of you!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH , CHOMMYE <3 .. I know, it is hard at the beginning... But I try my best.. to be stronger ... well, i cant lie to myself.. that I'm not stronger enough, to face this kinder situation.. the harder I try.. its  feel me horrible =,=" ... I cant replace you, because you're my first pet that I take home.. and you're the first make my family HAPPY!! I know, you have give us a baby.. but still, you're the most I love and my beloved pet..

:: I hoping that, someone will cheer me up.. but it doesn't .. NO ONE .. =,=" its like, I'm walking alone .. even you're a animal but its like you my sister to me and my friend.. I dont like this situation ... I HATE IT .. i hate that when I lost the something that I really love!! this way, make me feel to HATE everybody!! I now, its not good to give up ..


:: I'm getting tired already.. hmm... wanna take some rest ..

What A Boring Day...

~ I'm Bored ~ 

I dont know what I feel today... huuu... T_T .. nothing I can do at home.. except online everyday, everytime ... ngee~ I hate it...!! I'm stuck in the WORD that doing nothing.. huuu  T_T , wanna shout it loud!! so everyone know what I feel today.. and hoping that someone will come to me, " hey, wanna join with me take a walk?? " wahhhhhh.... I hope so, {if is real =,=} huhuhuhuhu... wanna cry ouh, but I'm not a baby anymore right?? hahahhahax... if I still like a baby, maybe i'll rolling all the house.. hahahahax... but still I cant do that ... I'm jealous the birds, because they a free.. flying anywere they want to... high up on the tree.. its sound good, can go anywere we want to... just spread your wings then fly higher and higher... awesomeeee..... :D ... but i realize that, I'm  a human.. not a birds or what ever ... being a human, actually there is such thing that we can do.. lots of thing, but we just do wanna use our BRAIN to THINK that should we do... T_T well to be honest, I'm lazy and very - very lazy using my brain... hahahahax... lolx ... okey, I'm running out of idea..hee~ WHAT SHOULD I DO????!!! arrggggggggghhhhhhhhhh, I hate it ..when I'm in this crazy situation damn!!


theres somebody, anybody can help me out?? I'm stuck!! ewww... T_T ... well, I'm sure that NO ONE CAN HELP ME... blaa.blaaa..blaaa...blaaa... ouh gosh, its just wasting my time in here... {EMO} .. no friends, no BFF , no group .... blaablaablaaablaaablaaa....... =,=" for sure NO ONE... yeahhh... indeed, FOREVER ALONE... ~~~ what a trouble day... I've many friend, BUT no one hangout with me... chatting and so on... ngee~~ blaming myself?? for what reason, NAN... =,=" haiyaaaaa..... what a day lorhhh..??? friends eat friends.. if its so, no need friend.. okey, just playing with ma shadow... wahhhhh... ALONE .... urmm , now it is 3.03PM ... I'm still doing nothing, NAN ... =,=" I'm dying if is like this EVERYDAY... now, I HATE MY LIFE!!! full of BORING stuff.. HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...HATE IT...

huhuhuhu....zZZzzzZZZzz

:: hahahahax {feel like I'm gonna crazy} ....what ever la... I give up already... I know, theres nothing that I can do.. even one thing.. huuu... well, I'm MRS.FOREVER ALONE...<empty> inside me... if I have a FRIEND.. just ME and I , together ...this two bond cant be separate ... oh my, feel like gonna CRY... :'( ..  I realize that how sad my life.. if I put all thing {MEMORY} , in one book... my sweet memory, can be count.. BUT THE SADNESS, cant.. totaly cannot..its is unknown !!! ... I know, I'm not alone.. there is out there..has same sitution as me.. :'( .. it is unfair!! why its happen to me?? am I has to live like this??!! why??





"... no words can replace how awesome it is ..."

I Just Can't Sleep ...

I wondering, why I can't sleep.. its 1.00AM right now..=,=" huhuhuhuhu... I hate it, became like a PANDA.. I know it is CUTE and chubby2 things.. hihihihi... but I doesn't mean it, that I hate PANDA.. hmm I think and I'm sure that, most of you.. understand wht I mean it just now.. urmm, "the eyes of PANDA" {BLACK} huhuhuhu... =,=" am I became like a panda or what??! for sure, I CANT SLEEPPPPPPP... arrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhggggggggg.... damn!! HATE IT.. huhuhu..there's anyone has the SOLUTION?? can u guys HEPL me?? because I need it.. >,< ......... there's anyone has a tips?? someone?? hmmm ... am I talking by myself?? {ahe, became CRAZY just because cant sleep} ...

:: well, the real is I'm scare of it.. =,=" do you know why?? hee~ of couse, no one know.. because, I haven't tell yet... hahahax.. {its not funny right, well to be honest.. I do know how to make a joke.. hee~} ... okey, I tell you why.. urmm, one day.. my friend tell me some story.. it is about a person that cant sleep.. the person tring most of thing that he could to sleep.. but every time he try, he failed ... time by time... its passing him, and he getting tired.. then he give up .. his healty became, worse... and bad.. his emotion , cant be control anymore... its like fifty-fifty ... then, he cannot talk either... there is a words that he always repeat, every second.. "123456789...am I sleep already?? " he repeat.. repeat..repeat, and repeat without NAN-STOP!! can you imagine how hard his trying to sleep?? well, his friend cant stand anymore by looking his condition .. so, he take care of him.. like a brother.. {do you have friend like that?? awesome right..} but when hs friend get married .. he cannot take care of him.. it doesn't he do wanna be a "GOOD FRIEND" but it is because his life now, doesn't same before he married.. now his a wife to take care of it.. has own FAMILY..

:: he loves his friend so much, but family is more important .. so, he take his friend to hospital and leave him there.. live it to doctor.. when all done, he walk with " no turning back " ... {leave, without saying good bye}... from now on, he is in the hospital ...

:: A few year later, there's something happen .. all the doctor become confused...
"what? when? why ? " all the question can't be answerd.. no one know... what is happening.. "HE'' became older, and older .. now he is 40 years old.. but on his 40 years old.. something happen that no one know... his just missing from the hospital... no one see him, anyway.. they search all around the hospital.. but they could not find anything.. even a clue .. {actually, where did "he" go?? and how did "he" escape?} .. do you have the answer? hmmm... till now, no one know.. they really can't find him.. even they already call police, and so on... they still cant find him.. where is he? ...

:: its mystery .. no one solve it.. its he run away just like that or he get any help from outside?? there is many myth about it ...

Valentine's Day ....

:: what is " Valentine Day " ?? and what for?? hmm... I'm confused about it.. why and what is the point exactly ... I'm wondering about it... well, how about you?? do you know why ?? :) .. hihihihi... hmm .. it is for couple or there is story behind of it.. but what is it?? anyone?? someone?? huhuhuhu... ouh gosh, please help me!! I need the answer =,=" ... huhuhuhu... well, its okey .. if no one wanna explain it.. T_T soon I'll know about it.. ^_^ hopley la.. kan?? hee~ I dont know when, but for such.. there is time for me to know about it.. hmmm ^_^ 14th FEB 2012 {on tuesday} ... do u have partner to celebrate it?? or " FOREVER ALONE " .. hahahax... like me!! >,< well, actully no alone la.. ^_^ .. urmm celebrate with ma pets {cats} .. "chommye,chydow,chyfoe and chybie... I love it so much... seriously, I really mean it.. compare with a ''man" hahahahax.. dont ask me why, hehehehe... cause I dont know how to explain it to you.. especially in WORDS.. hohohoho...

:: for those celebrate valentine day, what do u feel? it is just H-A-P-P-Y or cant be explain in words?? ^_^ hihihhi.. share with me, I wanna know.. can I? :) .. if, cant.. well its okey.. I hope, your relationship will create a bond that never broken until the end!! hehehehe..I just wanna say that, fill he/she with your loves , caring , and knowing he/she likes .. ^_^ build a happy moment with he/her ..


:: LOVES.. what is love for you? it is just a word, or there is something about it? can you guys , explain to me?? because I wanna know ,whats do you think about it.. well, for me.. love is powerful!! Am I right? its can change someone.. or makes people carzy about it.. for example, if you are in love.. what do you feel? flying in the air? or if see he/her, you cant breath well?? hahahax... dum,dumm..dumm,dummm {heart beat} ... is it getting faster and faster ?? or else?? ^_^  I'm not such what do you feel exactly, but from what ma friend tell me.. it goes like that.. {honestly, its funny} hahahax.. hmm... if you really2 love him/her, dont waste your time.. tell him/her the truth.. but its take TIME!! dont rush, take a time knowing he/she.. if there is a perfect time, then tell he/she about your feeling.. its like 50% " YES or NO " , what ever the answer it is.. just take a deep breath {fuhhhhhhh} hee~ if he/she say YES, congratulation !! if he/she say NO.. then he/she is not for you,,, well dont be upsad :( ... theres million people out there, and ONE of them is for YOU!! dont give up!! CHAYO-CHAYO...!! you'll find it.. SOMEDAY.. at the first time, it could be hard to forget he/she .. cause
there is such sweet moment with him/her in you life.. urmm, take you time.. slowly and slowly.. :) .. LIFE MUST GO ON!!


:: whats gift that he/she gave to you?? wanna share?? hihihihihi.. chocolate, teddy bear, a kiss, new phone, or a sweet time with him/her?? which one is yours?? hmm..^_^ ... I think most of you, have a AWESOME gift , right?? hehehe.. well, keep it.. take care of it.. never ever give it to someone, cause it is for you.. special for YOU.. :)


:: Well, I hope.. you have a great day on this '' Valentine Day " or " Happy Tuesday " hihihihi... if there is you wanna share with me.. INBOX me okey ?? ^_^ hee~ if not, I hope you'll be enjoy reading what just I wrote it {Broken English_-_ T_T sorry for that..huhuhuhu...}